Dreamers Dream

If I could run away right now, I would. I would run until I couldn't run Anymore ..this life is to short to stay stationary . I would run off to the isles or to the exotic India areas. I would leave this life behind and create a new one... One where people laugh, smile, and dream! Have adventures and fight dragons! Save the world without anyone even knowing! Climb mountains and cross rivers! My dreams are these.. 

To meet a handsome prince, a dashing and honorable man. One who isn't afraid to dream with me and run along side me. I want to grow wings and fly! See things never discovered and find secret places only I know of. I want to hear the music of the Forrest, the lament of the winds! I want to stand on the highest peak and scream at the top of my lungs, I want to be heard by everyone and no one. I want to make this world disappear , I want to mean otherworldly people and see unexpected things! I want to go back to those places that made me feel the most alive! I want to walk those streets, I want to see those sights. I want to run...and never stop.

The Strength of a Man

I found this today online, and I find it to be so true! 

Ladies! Hold out for the right guy! It will be so worth it!

The strength of a man ...

The strength of a man isn't seen in the width of his shoulders...
It's seen in the width of his arms that circle you.

The strength of a man isn't in the deep tone of his voice...
It's in the gentle words he whispers.

The strength of a man isn't how many buddies he has...
It's how good a buddy he is with his kids.

The strength of a man isn't in how respected he is at work...
It's in how respected he is at home.

The strength of a man isn't in how hard he hits...
It's in how tender he touches.

The strength of a man isn't in the hair on his chest...
It's in his Heart... that lies within his chest.

The strength of a man isn't how many women he's loved...
It's in how he can be true to one woman.

The strength of a man isn't in the weight he can lift. It's in the burdens he can carry....

Most of all make sure his heart is held by Jesus!!!!!

With that being said...

Go forth ladies! 

Get yourself a "Strong" man

A Shortcut to an Easy Life

So lately I've been doing a LOT of soul searching.. who the heck am I??? 

I realized that I've completely forgotten who I am. 

After a few agonizing days of not knowing what was wrong I finally did what I was supposed to do in the very begining. I cried out to my Jesus and pleaded for a second chance! I prayed it wasn't to late to continue the road He had for me. 

He simply answered with the loving voice only Jesus could have.. He said "Im still here, and I always have been- Your destiny is still here and I have great plans for you. Will you trust me?" I almost screamed yes!! 

I can't handle life without my Jesus.. 

I am a new creation.

I am still discovering who I am. 

I'll keep you posted ;) 

Growing Pains!

The Thing About Life and Growing Up.

(This was written last week)

=] 

Recently I have been experiencing some really ANNOYING grown up problems. These problems are; relationships, money, work, time, and family issues- There are so many things I wish I got right, but sadly most of the time I handle it pretty poorly. I am a leader at my Church's youth group, and last week they (I already knew this) learned that God is chipping away the things in their lives that He wants to work on. This begin the case, we took rocks and wrote in sharpie what we wanted God to deal with in out lives as a symbol of someone chipping away at a rocky surface to create something beautiful. I took my rock and wrote- Pride, Selfishness, and Control- 

These are the things I really struggle with. I didn't really think that God would test me in these instances, but as God tends to do.. He proved me SO completely wrong. 

Lately I have become overwhelmed with the idea that I cant really take care of myself. Money is hard to come by! It DOESNT grown on trees and sadly it gets used faster than it is made. Thankfully my mother is a wiz with stretching money and she is really helping me with creating a stable budget. I don't know what I would do without her. 

Relationships are hard to maintain. !!!!!! BLAH! 

I have a very wonderful and amazing boyfriend but there are bumps in the road.

 I have an a GREAT dad! He is the one I never think to go to, but when I do- I feel completely better! Sadly I don't spend the time I should with him. 

I have super duper friends! I love them all but sometimes I feel I just give and give but never receive anything in return. I know that love means giving of ones self and never asking for anything in return, but if you read again the things I've given to God… Selfishness is one of them. I see my sin everyday and I have to make a choice.. sometimes I am just to darn lazy (to my chagrin) to make any difference. I love the fact that God loves me… He gives me my motivation that I seek so desperately in others. 

I don't know what I would do without this fact..

I can never let God down.

I was never holding Him up.

He is the one holding ME up! 

What an amazing and unfathomable thing! 

So when I'm worried or stressed about "grown up" problems.. 

I just need to take a chill pill (as my loving boyfriend would say)

I have literally looked everywhere and the just don't sell those online! :P 

I am currently in my Media Arts class- and this is just one little thing I would like to say..

Kids in high-school now, are WAY different than those when I was in high-school. I mean seriously get your stuff together people! 

I take my class in a high-school and the majority of them are like toddlers!

Its bad when the teachers have to tell you to stop talking so loudly and to sit down. I am on the last leg of my first semester. It is agreed that all of these students should be pretty far along in their work.. but noooooo they only have maybe two or three projects done which I find highly immature. 

Thank God that I learned discipline when I was in high-school, these kids are going to be completely screwed in college. 

I guess they will have to learn the hard way. 

Im NOT saying that I was the perfect student, but I DID have respect for my teachers. Yes, I still HATE classes and anything to do with school, but at least I understand that doing things that are just not fun is simply a part of growing up as well. 

Time is something of a problem for me.. 

Some days there seems to be too much time, and other days… toooooo little!  There is never an in between! I wish I could bottle the spare time that I have during the day and just save it for those day when I just need an extra hour to sleep- Can I legitly get an out loud amen here people- Thank you. 

Sleep seems to also be a problem. If I could write a letter to my sleep, this is what it would say.

Dear Mrs. Sleep:

I have noticed that recently you have taken to avoiding me. I don't know what I have done to offend you but I really just want to be friends! Im not trying to complain here but you really need to work on being on time- and also not over staying your welcome.. I feel you lead me to do strange things to get your attention- such as - drinking nyquil in copious amounts every week, drinking ghastly tea concoctions and literally working myself into a frenzy trying to relax! Plus you need to slow down when I am having a really awesome dream, its just not working for me when you decide to leave with such haste right in the middle! Its just NOT punctual! I would also REALLY appreciate if you would not leave me feeling like I've been beaten over the head with a baseball bat every morning its not a friendly thing to do.

Sincerely 

Abby 

=] Wow I feel better getting THAT off my chest! 

It is currently 9:40 and I have to sit here till 11! You guy are just really in for it today! I should have named this Abby's ramblings. I will accept the fact that you most likely have stopped reading this a lonnnng time ago, thats really ok with me, I understand. 

You probably wonder why I am not doing my work, and yelling at kids who don't do it as well. The thing is.. I am NOT a hypocrite, I just over achieved and got all my stuff done already :D I am quite proud of myself actually! That never happens to me! 

I feel like I could ramble about this for hours and hours.. 

So i found out what really calms me down.

I really love Pop, Rock, Rap, and like EVERY genre there is.

BUT they tend to make me fidgety and restless. 

I have started listing to really calming piano music and I found that it really helps me concentrate. I know you think that it doesn't take a genius to figure that out, but I say that it does take a pretty smart person =] It took me a while to figure this out, so Id say Im not tres* intelligent. (French for very*) 

J'aime le français. Malheureusement j'ai oublie la plupart de ce.  

Figure that out! ;) 

I digress..

Growing up is a fun thing! Yet totally scary! I will never get it perfectly right! 

Is it weird that I am completely calm in the fact that I am ok with NOT being in control anymore. I find it GREAT! 

Live and learn. Get out there and ENJOY yourself! 

<3 <3 <3

ps… I have become very aware of my gum chewing sound.. and now I cant ignore it.. 

A letter from my King.

He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see what he has done and be astounded! The will put their trust in God. Psalms 40:3

My Princess:

You are to Me a beautiful song.

Your life is sweet symphony that I Myself am composing note by note.

I take your failures, your tears, and your triumphs. and I turn them into a glorious harmony that will be sung in the heavens for all eternity. All your thoughts and deeds are laid before Me like notes on a page. 

Every choice you make is a significant chord in an eternal arrangement.

Dont let the noise of the world destroy your magnificent melody, My beloved. Seek me in the quiet stillness in the morning, and I will fill your heart with divine music. Stay in rhythm with My Spirit throughout the day, and I will make your life an irresistible melody that will linger like sweet perfume in the hearts of all that journey with you. Walk with Me in absolute surrender, and you will draw others to Me in a rhapsody of praise.

Love,

Your King and your Composer. 

(An excerpt from His Princess by Sheri Rose Shepherd.) 

"Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair
"Walk beside the pony Daddy, it's my first ride
I know the cake looks funny Daddy but I sure tried"
Oh, with all that I've done wrong, I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every morning and butterfly kisses at night"

The two most important people in my life are:

My Heavenly Father

&&

My Earthly Father

<3

We are Hunny and the Bee.

  We might not have any money

Don't you worry there my honey

But we've got our love to pay the bills

Maybe I think you're cute and funny

Maybe I wanna do want bunnies do with you if you know what I mean

Oh lets get rich and buy our parents homes in the south of France

Lets get rich and give everybody nice sweaters and teach them how to dance

Lets get rich and build a house on a mountain making everybody look like ants

From way up there, you and I.

So I have this incredible man..

He is:

Smart.

Funny.

Attractive.

Dashing.

Lovely.

KISSABLE.

Muscular.

Charming.

Enchanting.

Ambitious. 

Artistic.

Charismatic.

Reliable.

<3 

These are just a few the adjectives that I use to describe him.

Here are some qualities that he has:

He is humble when shown favor.

He cares about others over himself.

He provides for my needs as well as his own.

He is kind beyond belief. 

He is an AMAZING leader(snipers have to be) 

He is devoted to only me me me me me! 

and the most importaint:

He loves God over everything 

What more could I possibly as for? 

"A hundred hearts would be too few
To carry all my love for you".
~Author Unknown

What do I know.

"For every good reason there is to lie, there is a better reason to tell the truth"- Bo Bennet

What is right?

Is it listening to your gut- or your head-

There is reasonable answers.

There are irrational answers.

Sometimes I wish I could be reasonable.

    Most of the time I am irrational when it comes to getting the truth from others..

I wish so dearly that I could be rational.

    BUT God tells us not to worry for many different reasons.

1. Worry really doesn't accomplish anything, why should we waste our time worrying about something we cannot change or may never have the answer to? Worrying wont bring an solution.

                                                                                                                                                        Matthew 6:27-29
Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don't work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are.

2.Worrying is physically NOT good for you. Honestly! It can mentally wear you down, depress, and assault your mind.

                                                                                                                                             Proverbs 12:25
Worry weighs a person down; an encouraging word cheers a person up

3. Worrying is the opposite of trusting God.

                                                                                                                                                 Matthew 6:30
And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?

                                                                                                                                         Philippians 4:6-7
Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.

4. Worrying puts your focus in the wrong direction. Keep your eyes focused on Jesus, even if it is difficult. God will take care of all of your needs.

                                                                                                                                                       Matthew 6:25
That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life-whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn't life more than food, and your body more than clothing?

                                                                                                                                                             1 Peter 5:7 Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.

      It is so hard to stay focused on the reasons not to worry. I think I am writing this for  my own personal benefit- I need to stop worrying. Life with Jesus is good even in the dark days, I am alive and I have breath in my body- why am I wasting time stewing about something that is of little eternal matter in the end.



In my own personal life I wish that the real truth was made known to me a little clearer than it is. God is my ultimate avenger, and I will trust in that fact.

<3

I was honestly expecting this blog to go completely differently..

I was ready to take out my anger and assumptions on all of you lovely readers..

But upon further studying of the Bible and counsil of my own spirit, I feel that I have come away from this with a new insight on trust and worry.